BREAKING DAWN MARATHON PAAAAAAAAAART 1. :)

We had our symposium held at University of Manila. I was with Emilio when we arrived at UST kasi meeting place namin ng fivers dun :) Ayun hinid na sumabay si eming sa amin kasi alam mo na, may ano sa kanila ni Lorraine haha. Kasabay nalang niya si Lars.. Ayun we waited for Janelle to arrived kasi she was late that time pero it was okay kasi we were thinking the symposium would start late nd we were right about it, kasi regestration time palang nung we arrived. :) Ayun as usual I was distracted by some people, lalo na kay girl at biy kasi they were together pero okay nalang sakin.. We didn't finish the symposium kasi mejo boring na saka si Lorraine at Denise maaga rin kelangan umalis eh.. Ayun nag aya ako kay Pam at Jazner na umalis narin tapos pasyal sa Robinson ermita haha and that we decided to watch Breaking Dawn.. We were buying tickets that time tapos ayun boom! I didn;t likewhat I saw that time, silang dalawa. It did hurt me seeing both of them together just the two of them.. Kaya ayun, sabe ni Jaz at Pam wag ko nalang pansinin.. pero the were like guilty kasi I'm sure of it that they were gonna buy tickets for themselves too kasi mukang manunuod din sila, pero seeing me there buying also umiwas sila but they didn't noticed that I saw them papaalis. Bakit kasi kelangan pa nila umiwas sakin? I mean I had the right to know, kasi tao rin ako nasasaktan mali yung ginagawa nila na pagiwas sakin para lang hindi ako mahurt, what they're doing? It just hurt me more kasi pinagtataguan nila ako, I have the right to know kasi honestly ang panget ng dating ng pinagtataguan niola ako but then nakikita ko anman na meron to think that si boy ay dati ko tapos si girl friend ang kablock ko pa.. Mas nasasaktan nila ako.. :( tatanngapin ko naman eh, mas mahihirapan lang kami ng ganitoooo.. Tatanggapin ko kahit sa inside ko may sakit paaaa kaysa naglilie at pinagtataguan pa nila akooo.. :(

Anyways haaaay enough of drama.. Tapos nakita namin sila rj. eming, josef, lars at lem. nag aya sila na magMOA so ayun, jaz refunded the ticket we bought for breaking dawn and decided to go with them in MOA. Dun nalang kami nagwatch. Kaso si Lem umiwi na kagad di na nakasama samin. :( Ang ganda ng breaking dawn. Epic! :"> Ayun.. that was it..

"have I found youuuuuu, flightles bird.... "

....No class this friday! :) Friday I'm inlove....nooooot!

I'm their target---BULL's EYE!

Kasi last tuesday nung uwin grabe mga TOTOO konmg kaibigan mangasar, they were yelling "YIEEEE" eh paano ba naman kasi when were about to went downstairs (sa main building to ha) pauwi na, nasa harap ko si E. Eh what the hell, haha ayaw ko na ng inaasar dun eh. Kasi it's just giving me hope! saka baka mamaya magfeeling na di pako over sa kanya. :< ayaw ko ng ganun.. Tapos nung wednesday naman, kasi nagbubuy sakin ng book yung boyfriend ni Nathalie (friend ko from biology), tapos nung inexcuse ako ni marion hala! buong MB sa room naghiyawan which made me laugh naman haha nakakatuwa ( i love MB!) good thing Elmar and Louise were still not there. :P The hell, i was imagining my face right there nung inaasar nila akooo, pasimuno syempre yung true friends ko (fivers) kuno hahahaha! :)) Tapos ayun na dumating si elmar, sus! Inasar parin ata ko or siya ata? either way, nagsabe sila ng "aww" haha nice, but then again that gives me hope nanaman. :| Then sumonod si louise pumasok, as if naman, obvious na they were together sabi nung iba sakin, pero the other should come late para masabi na they're not together. Pero still it's obvious nga eh. Haaaaay. :<

Edsa Shangrila with Fivers! :)

This happned last November 11, 2011. Yeah I know right 11/11/11. Overnight:)) Kasi convention ng dad ni Roseanne pero Tito Ramon needed to go home that time kaya ayun kami na nagstay dun, supposedly dapat hangaang wednesday pa yun kaso may pasok kami haha :D Ayun, wala si Denise kasi kelangan niya umuwi for some reasons. :) Ayun, we ate dinner sa SM megamall, Shakey's. Tapos ayun we hurried back sa hotel and spent the hours their. Tapos nagwish kami nung nag 11:11pm na haha Funny! We had a nice sleep.. :)) Tapos kinabukasan free buffet kami, ahaha kumain kami ng napaka dami.. Ayun that was it. :>

Here at rosey's crib. :D

Baka sa weekends nalang ako makakapagblog hihi. Haaaay, Gusto ko sana magpunta sa wish lanterns peroooo wag na lang. :(

TOMORROW, back to school again. back to realityyy.

Well yeah, I have to enjoy LIFE. Happiness is that. :)

Great debate with my friend :D

We were texting about giving chances to develop one's feeling towards the other. It went like this..

"...Paano kung wala pang feelings? yan usually ang problema sa inyo mga babae eh. :P hhahaha! Paano magkakafeelings? Eh usually naman pag nagkafeelings ka pag gwapo o kilala mo naaaa! diba? Pati di anman madalian yun eh. :P haah sorry nakipagaway eh =)) haha! kala ko ba pare-pareho babae?"

ME: "Pare-pareho babae kapag nasa relatimnship stage na sila, or kapag may tampuhan. Pero iba-iba naman feelings nyan kapag pipili ng gusto syempre iba-iba ang feeling kapag nagkakagusto eh. alangan are-pareho. haha :)) Sorry nagbabase kasi ako sa feelings ko and besides di ako masyado tumitingin sa outside beauty hahasaka taman lang yung maging honest ka kung ayaw mo sa isang tao talaga. Para fair ka.. Better hurt them earlier and in reality kasi the hurt will not that last long naman or else you'll just make it worst and hurt them in the long way run knowing that there's nothing to develop in there. Be fair enough. haha. :)"

then my friend talked about the hardworks and efforts..

ME: "Yeah I believe in hardworks and efforts too. But what if wala ngang talaga feelings yung tao towards dun sa isa diba? I mean c'mon! Maappreciate niya siguro yun pero wala talaga eh. Look, for example si ------ diba? I mean, oh eto tayo mga friends niya suportado, "onting effort pa". Pero sa part ni girl, wala talaga diba?.. kaya jan nabubuo ang 'stupid for love' naganyan na ako. haha!"

"ayos nakipagdebatehan! :)) pero kung di mo igigive ng chance yung tao to prove their love look at things diba.Nagustuhan mo ba ang micro simula palang? Diba di naman kaagad-agad. di lahat ng bagay LIKE kagad. Yung iba dapat mag-grow muna? Paano kung yung the ONE mo di mo feel o no spark pero siya talaga diba? Parang give guys every chance. I know Elmar did a shit pero come on! DON'T LET A GUY RUIN ALL THE GUYS. Kasi di lahat ganon. :((" ----okay this reply hit me like a woah! hell.. haha Do things changed my "paniniwala" because of HIM? oh noooo..

"No, maybe life want you to learn na love is not an instant thing. It needs to be worked. Di ko lang alam. :> Fate did not let you feel just a hurt. Fate ave you lesson and wisdom about love pat. ;)"

ME: "Yeah that fate thing. Bakit kasi you have to get hurt for you to learn and understand love, pwede naman wala nalang masaktan.. Stupid love, yet the greatest and the loveliest feeling ever. Parang ironic noh? 'When there's pain, there's love' kaakibat daw lage.. Stupid thing again, but undeniably true. ;')"

"kelangan talaga masaktan . lahat masasaktan best patty! No, it's not stupid pat! :) haha See you can blog about this. You are undeniably good at this. :)"

WELL that's it.. hihi. :) Absurd but great debate.. LOL. :))

Late night phone call..

I was in the phone with Arbert Rubio, friend ko siyaaa.. We studied in tha same school nung elementary siya tapos ako highschool. :) We talked like hours and hours hihi.. oh hour lang pala.. Hmm nothing so special, pero I was shocked kasi first time niya tumawag, then he just asked me to accopnany him kapag wala siya makasama kasi napapagastos daw siya kapag friends niya kasama niya, puro dota daw. :D That was it.. Oh ang it's November 7 today 12:48 in the morning. :)

Because I'm absolutely in boredoooomm..

Ayan ang mga nagawa ko.. Dapat pala lage wala ko magawa para makapagdrwa ako eh. :D Kidding! I'm not that good though, I promise to draw something neither I can't imagine I draw something "shocking". :D

Right

Flowwwwwwwwwww slowly, but surely. :)

TODAY :? ------ February 9 2011 I died. When will I be renew? I dunno.

bipolar?! yes.
i am optimistic and scared.
i am sociable and timid.
i am always cautious and forever dead careless.
i enjoy solitude nevertheless i fear being left alone.
i am fickle-minded though nearly impossible to bend.
i am an achiever, and yet i always end up losing more than i have gained.
I allow people to enter my life easily. yet i tend to be cynical at times.
I’d prefer everyday being nonstop,
but the blank spaces in life are my sanctuary.
i hate doing nothing, and hate being asked to do everything.

I experience mediocrity at its best.
I am not the best dancer you'll ever see,
but yes, dancing is something I do.
Writing and drawing are two of my emotional outlets.
One of my best stimulants is a good novel. Esp. those of Paulo Coelho's Mitch Albom and Nicholas Sparks,
I am a microbiologist student, but i think i'll be a surgeon someday.

I have two major sicknesses i think i'll never be cured off:
One, I'm weak at easily hurts inside.
Two, i often procrastinate.

I allow people to enter my life easily.
yet i tend to be cynical at times.
I am stubborn when it comes to goodbyes -slash- letting go.
Fair enough, I hate those.

♥ My friends are my refuge. My family, my weakness.

Religion is not my thing.
But i've remained faithful to it for it ties me to my beloved family.
And now, maybe i do believe that for all its errors,
it really is just trying to put things right.
I've learned to distinguish religion from spirituality.
I am baptized Catholic, so religion for me is like peering with vain effort to discern clearly a vague mirage.
But in the end, i honestly believe that all religions tend to point to the same light. In between the light and us, sometimes there are too many rules (rules that i sometimes tend to not follow because i do not want those rules to define me.) The light is here and there are no rules to follow this light. but i do believe. i do want to believe.


I am never satisfied with what I am, and what I have. Like everyone else I dream of nothing but pure happiness, yet with which sadness there on comes for I never am content. And never will be.

I'm hopelessly romantic, I love deeply and I do believe marriage is a sacred thing. :))

-----what the hell, is this me? :)))))) Okay enough of this rampant things on my head which obviously as you can see I blogged in here. FUNNY! :D

Why?

Why does it hurts here? I can't come up with any reasons why do I even think of those again. It still hurtssss.. Oh God, why like this? I mean can I just be healed already? I'm too tired and it messes up everything! Can I have thie amnesia so that I could already forget? hoho Kidding! But seriously, I want to...be happy. Please let ma be, kahit one month lang ng hindi ko naiisip ule siya at siya. I'm trying my best here, but still.. Boom. Bumabalik sa dati. And oh God pasukan na, I can't even think of what to dooo now I mean ayun nanaman ooh, naiimagine ko nanaman sarili ko not focus, prententing to be fine while I'm not, really..

:')

I'm gonna make new memorieeees! I swear, I'm never hurt again I'd be more careful, I'd me more stronger. I'd be more wiser.. I will never get hurt again, never..

THURSDAY!

Andito kanina sila Kc, janine at Elshai. We watched Zombadings 1, Patayin sa shokot si remington. :)))) Yeah It was funny!.. Oh and I'm kinda jealous kasi they're going to Jona's house kasi Joana's celebrating her birthday there.. I wasn't able to come kasi alam ko na na irereject lang ako ni mama kapag nagpaalam akoo.. Hay anyway, at least I didn't get bored kanina. Oh before I forgot, nagdecotate na kami ng Christmas tree.. Next stop: sa labas. I wll take a picture of it tomorrow then I'm gonna blog it here. Had fun today. :)

SOMEDAY!

I'm gonna be there someday! You'll see. :') Oh need to list all my wish list!

Novembering (remembering) things. HAHA!

Oh oh its already novemberrrrr! I'm excited for Christmas hihi I know too early for that.. Well I dunno what I'm supposed to blog? But what I know is that I didn't do much this daaaay. Boredom striked me again kanina.. Haaay. :| Will be decorating our house tomorrow foooooor.. LALALA christmas. :)

True!

When she says it's over

she still wants you to be hers..

awww.. :'(

• Boy: I broke up with her.
• His Best Friend: What happened?
• Boy: She’s just too much for me.
• His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
• Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
• His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
• Boy: Oh.. Well..She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
• His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she
• cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
• Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
• His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
• Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
• His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
• Boy: Well, she..
• His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
• Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
• His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. That's what happened.

Crazy Stupid Love movieeee mode :)

"There's one true love for everyone and if you fought far enough for that person, the one you true love will always work out... I can promise you this, I would never stop trying because when you find the one. You never give up." ------ :) Yeah its right.. How can I possibly find the ONE :')