I wantto haveeeee many dressesssssssssssss!

I want to have a dress like this!:>

Mark the date!! For the Kobe is coming!! :">

Ohmygoooooosh I'm so excited! hihihihi. :">

Updaaaaates again and again :)

Februart 20, 2012- Ayun hmm I'm proud para kela Lorraine at Janelle, kasi natanngap na sila dalawa for ojt. Wala na sila proproblemahin for that... Hmm I'm sad this day kasi may nalaman ako na nakakasad. Per I shouldn't tell here nalang para iwas ano..Pero ayun hihi. Yun lang nahurt akoo pero okay na nga lang.

Feb 21- I feeeeeeel so annoyed. Pero I'm fine naman na though. I really don't know what to do. Kasi bastaaaa, hmm :( Basta..akin nalang tong pangyayaring etooo :|

Feb 22, 2012- Ash Wednesday mass with Lorraine Roseanne and Denise. Tapos eat street food, first time to eat with them tapso nagstand by atgumawa ng thesis sa pacific starbucks! hihi. Ayun masaya yung day ko ngayon sa date na to. :)

Feb 23, 2012- No classes. Nasa dorm kami ni roseyy for thesis. Tinapos na namin ang thesis para wala ng proproblemahin. Nakakatuwa si Konstanz coz she told Pam to asked me to go with them sa EK, hihi. Ayun laaaaang for today.. :)

It's everything definitely....Okay? :]

I feel like I'm a bad person, really. I just hurt a friend, misunderstood I guess...

  I really don't know what to do now, feeling ko it's all wrong to be totally attached for a person. Wrong wrong wrong.. I'm totally DEPRESS right now as right at this moment while I'm blogging this. natatakot ako natatakot talaga ako maging close ule sa mga tao.. Ayaw ko ng mamroblema about sa mga tao. :( Pero okay naaaaa. Okay na kaming one of my friend ko. Hihi. But still parang may something missing... hmmm :(

Hellooo. Hindi ko maiexpress ang sasabihin ko through english. Tagalog wordssss muna...

DOES THIS FRIENDSHIP MEANS TO STOP ALREADY?
Give me a sign Lord, coz its breaking me..

May mga taong mahirap na talaga pagkatiwalaan ngayon. Yung bang ginawan mo ng mabuti tapos may mga bagay pa pala na nasasabi sayooo. Ayaw ko ng pinaguusapan ako ayaw ko ng attention na ibinibigay na negative tungkol sakin dahil buong buhay ko yung mga taong malapit sakin hindi ko binibigyan ng sama ng loob. May mga bagay na sa simula lang talaga, kahit pagkakaibigan minsan hanggang sa simula lang talaga, pero ako yung kaibigang pangmatagalan, pero may mga bagay ng kapag may nangyaring di magnada sa pagkakaibigna natin nagiging mahina ako, kahinaan ko kasi ang pamilya at mga kaibigan ko. lalo na yung may mga nasasabing ano yung kaibigan ko tungkol sakin na hindi ko nais, hindi ako lumalaban dito madalas iniiyakan ko lang nagiging mahina akooo...silent treatment ang ibinibigay ko sa kanila at pagtapos nun hindi na talaga ako kumikibooo o wala na awkward nako sa kanila. Masakit talaga parang nabroken hearted ka na rin kung yung taong itinuring mong kaibigan, yung taong pinagkatiwalaan mooo ng husto yung taong itinuring mo na KAIBIGANG TOTOO. Masaaaakit. masakit talagaaaa..HAHA hindi nama kelangan lumayo ang isa para sa isa eh. Grabeee ewan ko naa. Sobra na masyado nako natatake advantage ng mga taooo. Haha. naiiyak akooo kung pwede ko lang sabihin lahat ditoooo. :( Naiiyak ako sa inis na ewaaaaan..They're making me feel like ako yung harang,and eventually i'm not. Bakit kaseeeeee, bakit bakit bakit bakit bakit naman yan ang palagay mong tingin ko sayoooo? Why people has to make things so big deal? Bakit, nananahimik ang buhay ko. I'm happy bakit kayo ganyannnn :( Ayaw ko ng pain yet people still gives me it! Do I deserve it? Wag niyo na ko isali jan.. Wag niyo isali jaaaaaaan, huhu it's breraking meeee. Hindi nako magiging mabait huhu ayaw ko naaaaa.. Please masaya ako eh hanggang sa kung ano nalang nassabe niyo jan huhuhu. masaya nakooo eh masaya naaaaI don't like attentions for me na negative please mahina ako ditooo wag na kayo makidagdag na nakaraan koooo. :(

Valentines Day--->ordinary day

   

Why oh whyy, ordinary day for meee. Pero still I'm counting the daysss. Someday, you're not gonna be an ordinary day. :) Someday!

PS: Still bitter!

Will go watch The Notebook and Serendipity for yhe nth time. My two faves. Baka mainlove paaaa hehe. 

Lots of Updates

Here it goessss..

February 8 2012- Ohmygod, first time ever to say badwords. Let me start it, kasi there was this called. The number is not on my contacts so hindi ko muna siya sinasagot. Since the caller was annoying already I answered it. Grabe nakakainis, it was a prank caller. Grabe ayaw ko nung mga sinabe ng prank caller na yoooon grabe firt time ko tuloy magsabi ng gag*. Sa text. huhu, so hindi nako virgin sa pagbabadwords :| pero okay naman na hindi na nagungulit..

February 10 2012- We went to Makati para magpass ng ojt formmms. I went with one of my closests friends, Jaz, Pam, and Paulo. Sinamahan ako ni paulo na mag pass sa Intertek, while Pam and Jaz went to makati med to pass their CV there. Ayun, nakakapagod naman pero it was happy. Kasi parang we explored the Makati city na rin. Tapos ayun we ate lunch sa mang inasal, actually brunch (breakfast and lunch) HAHA we weren't able to ate breakfast and lunch kasi. Saka pala this was the day na naka college shirt kami and we had no class na that afternoon kasi yung mga prof may variety show. I wasn;t able to watch kasi ngayonnagpunta kami makati. I was not with the fivers, kasi si Rose was with her best friend aly, janelle and lorraine nagwatch variety show tapos si Denise sa exhibit naghelp. Ayun. Maaga rin kami nakauwi naman sa school mga 3:30. tapos I was with Lorraine na kasi sabay kami uuwi. Yeah, nga pala nakasabay ko si Dhan Pua at Moses Iglesias sa fx. :) Ayun..

Feb 11 2012- Charm and Chai was at my house! wala si Mama kasi nag-MAnaoag sila ni tita Beth. Ayun movie triop and foodtrip lang. :)

Feb 12 2010- i had this kwentooo ngayon pero masyado marami eh huu bukas ko nalang ituloy or someother time :) thereeeee

PS: 2 days nalang at Valentines day naaa. :|

OUT OF MY LEAGUE ONCE AGAIN

Valentines Day=Ordinary day

Shocks, hearts day will be soon enough. Bitter ako. Never did I have a Vday.

But it's fine though, someone someday would spend what they called VALENTINES DAY with me.

February 9 will be soon enough too! I think I've already moved on. Ready nako iface lahat, but where should I put all the things he'd gave to me? Even though I'm moved on na kasi, I could not forget how that PAIN hurts me. Oh yeah before I forgot, we had this recollection last friday Feb 3 in med auditorium, of course given that there would be a confession. So there, I'm kind of teary eyed that time after I confessed. One of the things that I confessed with Father (priest) was that "Is it a sin not YET to forgive a person?" "Coz father I couldn't forget how he gave me that pain, just not now." then father said "God forgives, so why shouldn't you?". That hit me hard, I think my sins were that big, especially the forgiveness thingy, coz father asked me to pray 10 Our Father (Lord's Prayer). Ohhh, I'm no ready, not yet this time. he caused me too much paiiiiiin that it reached to a point that I think I would never be healed, pero I'm healed now. pero I couldn't forgive what he did, not really now. :( So that's it!

Oh yeah again, I'm a little bit excited about what's gonna happen in Vday. but still it will be an ordinary day for me. :) KBYE!

MY CACTUS HEART! ----Feb 3 2012

Watched it with my buddy blockmates: Jaz Janelle and Lorraine. Super hassle yung commute part coz we watched the movie in SM manila so ayun, hirap pala talaga commute dun! Movie was not that good yet not that fail? hahaha. A typical story of a girl kinda hates? or should I say kind of not wanted to involved in Love? :) There :)